dearest czelene

March 05, 2011 Dearest Czelene

I am grateful that I went out with you this day

I was late and you were tired but off you go

You make me feel that you want me around

On second thought, do you really do? (kidding)

Over salad for each season and jambalaya I ranted out

I’m sorry if you had to hear all those negativities

Forgive me if I didn’t make it come out good

I should’ve versed it better for your precious ears

Those people I went through fieldwork with

Are really amazing people but most likely I’m not prepared for them yet

And maybe for you either, I ‘m not yet ready to be a friend you deserve

I can give you nothing. I am sorry I cannot treat you out as extravagantly as you do

I try to be good; Maybe best if I could

Gumbo was great as your recommendations always are

I trust in your choices they always work well Given your age, younger than mine

You already know much about life You have a lot of fantastic insights I learn from

You sharpen me my friend! I admire you for how far your foresight goes

Your perceptions on people, decisiveness and taste are exquisite

You see matters deeply and present them in new lights Your criticisms are constructive

I’ll try to change what you have pointed out and even not give up until I have changed them all

I try not to pry but I know you’re no longer in pain

About your loss I don’t know how I am to express How much I’m sorry for

But pain is past and words may no longer work

How complicated is this world?!

Intentions do not equate with actions or words

But I feel safe because the One who keeps me whole until today

Is the same as the One who looks after you day by day